This doesn't have to make any sense to anyone else, including me. I'm not saying this is the only way of viewing what I'm wanting to share here, different is, and can be good, not necessarily better.
When I think of the love of God my Father, I can't think of that without it encompassing His transforming, liberating grace as well.
I wrote a piece a while back, thoughts, on the inconvenient truth of grace. I am seeing not a decreasing, but rather an increasing awareness of this becoming an ever more alarming, but freeing proposition.
Unless I'm really in a fog, it is my understanding, although belonging to Him, there is still within the bent and twisted avenues of my unconverted soul a inclination, a disposition towards my wanting from the moment I awake, to want to follow the interests of me, myself, and I.
Is it that incongruous to think that His love and grace is, an inconvenient truth? Doesn't it talk about this most clearly in one of the communications Paul shared with the church?
Galatians 5:16-18 (The Message)
16-18 My counsel is this: Live freely, animated and motivated by God's Spirit. Then you won't feed the compulsions of selfishness. For there is a root of sinful self-interest in us that is at odds with a free spirit, just as the free spirit is incompatible with selfishness. These two ways of life are antithetical, so that you cannot live at times one way and at times another way according to how you feel on any given day. Why don't you choose to be led by the Spirit and so escape the erratic compulsions of a law-dominated existence?
Learning to live loved, is only possible in the context of the struggle that goes on continually from within, the outer pressures are simply being used of the father, no matter their complexities, to present us an opportunity to allow, know, what it means to choose Life, in the face of the inconvenience to my self.
This as well from the Message, Romans~1-2
With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ's being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.
A new law, a new and living dynamic, (the Law of the Spirit of Life) the love of the Father, moment by moment freeing us in this battle where the gravitational pull of sin and death beckons us to live.
I love the thought our brother Peter shares with the church, so very much alive today, in this moment as it was over two thousand years ago, 'Continue to grow in the grace and true knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ.'
For me, I cling to the One who is that Living Hope, the one who said, 'I have come to seek and save that which is lost.'
We are all lost, and it is Him seeking us, drawing us in ways that stagger our independent and arrogant ways, whereby in having our eyes opened to the reality of His unconditional love, there is no fleshly boasting permitted.
If I have lost something from birth, how would I ever know I was missing something? Maybe this loving Father has much more (up his sleeve) in his heart and affections towards me than simply saving my lost/dead spirit, but calling forth those lost portions of my soul that were meant to be vibrantly animated with His loving embrace.