Thursday, October 30, 2008
His Palpable Presence
Blessed are the disturbed, for they shall know the God and Father of all comfort.
The storm was brewing even before going to bed last night, it wove its relentless burrowing way deep into my inner being even after entering the land of snooze. The energizing of His spirit was already starting to get my attention before I went to bed, in so much as I felt directed to put up a new piece on my blog that deeply spoke to me.
While sleeping, a world of the unexplainable opened up to me, as it is most often that way when I dream, all I know was as I was waking this morning I was certain of these words which I kept saying over and over, “I will not apologize anymore.”
Reflecting on this and sharing it with my wife as she was getting ready for work I began to see this erosion that had been creeping into my soul, as it were a drifting away somehow from the One who is my ALL. The subtlety of this invasion was most disturbing, but sobering.
Somehow I had given over to entertaining thoughts that had nothing to do with the truth of Who’s I am, almost as if I was allowing myself to become invisible, blending in much like a chameleon does in camouflaging its-self and for all intents disappearing.
I sensed Father lovingly but most firmly speaking to me, "Is this who I have called/made you to be, are you going to settle for fear misshaping and disfiguring you? Are you going to hide behind the lies I have broken over your life, or are you going to rise up in my strength, and BE the man/son I have purpose you to be?"
In answering from deep within my heart-YES, there was awakened a surge of power/strength I knew was not due to anything I could muster up.
Your signature of love is deeply written into my being, Father you’ve called me to BE a communicator, to speak forth your heart of love and encouragement to those whose arms are falling at their side, whose knees are beginning to buckle, whose hearts are about to cave in.
As Peter launched out onto the very word Jesus spoke to him, “come” and stepped out of the security of the physical and walked on water, I too am stepping out and embracing Him and in so doing embracing His delight in ways I have yet to imagine.