What are you saying, are you asking me if I’m following Him simply for “what’s in it for me,” how dare you be so insensitive, so crass, so heartless, who do you think you are anyway, God??
The nerve of the Father getting into my personal space, now that can’t be unconditional loving acceptance, maybe I need to rebuke the devil on these uncomfortable lies right now, I don’t have to stand for this crap, I want to get to my happy place. How does that go, ‘there’s no place like home, there’s no place like home.’
Is it really Him we want without counting the cost to us personally, well let me encourage Richard and those of you who will read this, you have no frame work, no inner grid work to even distinguish or comprehend the cost factor yet.
In ‘taking the red pill’ there was unbeknownst to us, set into motion the much needed extensive work of (grace) the cross now dealing with our amoral soul, and Life of the Father addressing and undressing so much inner crud, stuff that has been established within our thinking as to the ‘real us.’
Welcome to the real world of grace and its loving demolition of the false you, that which you have believed is really YOU!
This whole arena that the red pill facilitated and opened up for us, is a door wherein we are in the process of learning Him beyond having the ‘right’ theology or statement of faith or right doctrine or anything else being but a substitute for having Him ‘fully’ formed in us. As Morpheus said to Neo:"But I can only show you the door. You're the one that has to walk through it."
Looking back and in this moment being lovingly reminded by the Father of a couple of things; "I imagine that right now you're feeling a bit like Alice. Tumbling down the rabbit hole?"
“Son, what part of buckle your seat belt (Dorothy) because Kansas (all that has been familiar territory), is about to go by, by didn’t you understand?”
Thank you Father for your faithfulness in reminding me that you will finish in and through me that which you have begun!